Mixed feelings and confusion

Sorry to inform you guys the super long post I uploaded to the one you see there didn't appear. I'm lazy to type it all over again so I'm just gonna talk about what you guys like to read. Just that it will be rather emotional 'cause it's quite close to heart.

I'm really confused. Do I like pig now? Or have I already forgetten about him? I mean, from the very beginning I was SIMPLY STUPID. It was unadulterated stupidity. Why appear so JIAN?! The embarrassment I actually faced was so great what I can do is just broadcast it to the whole world. It's a thing about wrong personal decision making- IN ALL TOTALITY. The mistake I made, though simple, was probably the most un-though-about decision I ever made, and it cost me my FACE.

Of course I can't say I have no take-aways from this. I learnt that we should really consider things carefully before carrying out- LOOK BEFORE YOU LEAP. That's what I really lacked this time- the thought process, the action and reaction, I put not a thought into that.

But I also took away from this a lot of embarrassment, some hurt and more skin on my face. The last item not necessarily a bad thing. Anyway I tatas gotta go do my zuowen and math for tmr. Haven't even STARTED!

Lotsa love,

Laura

Go to my new blog!

go to my new blog! this one is screwed. I didnt want to change but this blog didnt SHOW my posts. so i'll copy the first few posts over and yea dont come here again.
new blog: www.ingenuity-of-me.blogspot.com

Confusion? Oh this is worse

Speaking of confusion, I'm even MORE confused now. Here's what happened during teacher visitation:I was in the canteen, and Ness asked me, "Do you want me to take one last picture of Can Xiang for you?" I guess this isn't taking responsible risks considering I didn't even want it- I had a nice picture in the yearbook already. But anyway, I agreed and she took my phone and went off. I was talking to some other people at that time, so when she returned the phone I just looked at the picture, and all of a sudden someone yanked my right hand. I pulled free, and then my phone was gone. Looking up, I saw the culprit. I don't have to say who right? I screamed, "Delete the picture if you want, just return my phone!" And after he deleted, I tried to grab it from him and he passed it to Keith/Jasper until I couldn't keep track so I left them alone, thinking they would return it eventually like BQ. But no, it was worse. They left it lying around at a carpark in the school. NICE. I wanted to pour sportade on Can Xiang but by the time I found my phone he left already.
I know you people think I'm always sharing my secrets, very 'bu yao lian'. Tell you guys something. You know why I don’t keep secrets? I've actually got a reason behind it. My parents always fought (big time, like 3 months don’t talk) when I was little, and my mum always told me not to tell anyone so I kept it to myself until I told Ness last year. I don’t know why her but it was quite a good choice. Anyway, I learnt that keeping stuff to myself is a really painful experience, so I guess it was automatic to learn to share my secrets with others from then on. Not that my parents don’t fight now, they STILL DO. But not so often and not so long. And through those experiences it really hurt me hard. And I used to cry a lot. But if you realise now I don’t cry at all in front of you guys. Of course part of me wants my face, but that’s not it. I actually do not feel sad enough to cry anymore. You know how sad I was during Graduation Day? I was TERRIBLY SAD. The nostalgia of carefree primary school days still strike me and I become unable to work for the whole day just thing about those things. But on Graduation Day and even now, when I try to cry about it, to let it out, it just doesn’t come out. I don’t know why, I guess maybe that’s why I actually liked Can Xiang. He cried- NORMALLY. You see, guys don’t usually cry. They find it embarrassing. But I'm actually rather embarrassed that I can't cry like others do. It feels terrible. Anyway, I gotta go do my homework and stuff, so byee!

LONG TIME NO SEE, PEEPS~!

Harlo! Oh man... I miss this place... I miss NYP... I miss the guys in class... BUT I realised that having an all girls school gives you loads more good friends for KEEPS. Then again, having guys in class birng along with them a whole load of entertainment. You know what I mean.

Okkay. Now. Take a deep breath. I'm gonna help you catchup on my life. Ready? Here goes-

I'm in a FUNTABULOUS class called ONE-ELEVEN. And I'm the tableperson! In 1/11 from NYP we have Zhiwen, Shiyin, Leevoon, Aidi, Lanabel and DUH me. =) My classchair is this girl called Victoria, and we have an amzing load of yuan fen. You see, her crush is in the same class as pig in HCI. AND HER CRUSH IS ALSO MY EX-CHURCH FRIEND before I got to IGNYTE! AMAZING. LOL. Ohyea. Blogger is fixed and problem-less. I am GLAD. I'm sitting beside this girl who calls herself Yvonne the mad. Not as bad as it sounds, okay?! Believe it or not, she's actually quite nice!

Ok let's take a break from all the details to tune in to NEWSFLASH. Celebrate V-Day at IGNYTE@Adam on 10 Feb 2007 at 4.45pm! Y=MX+C, find out more about it through moi. -End of advertisement-

Okay the last bit leads me to my next point. I'm taking FRENCH! =) The syllabus is FAST. Even my dad says it's going fast! Basically they cram everything into you so you can write magnificent compositions but leave you unable to pronounce the words! For me, I can pronounce, my dad taught me. Problem is, I can't spell! xP AMAZING.