Confusion? Oh this is worse

Speaking of confusion, I'm even MORE confused now. Here's what happened during teacher visitation:I was in the canteen, and Ness asked me, "Do you want me to take one last picture of Can Xiang for you?" I guess this isn't taking responsible risks considering I didn't even want it- I had a nice picture in the yearbook already. But anyway, I agreed and she took my phone and went off. I was talking to some other people at that time, so when she returned the phone I just looked at the picture, and all of a sudden someone yanked my right hand. I pulled free, and then my phone was gone. Looking up, I saw the culprit. I don't have to say who right? I screamed, "Delete the picture if you want, just return my phone!" And after he deleted, I tried to grab it from him and he passed it to Keith/Jasper until I couldn't keep track so I left them alone, thinking they would return it eventually like BQ. But no, it was worse. They left it lying around at a carpark in the school. NICE. I wanted to pour sportade on Can Xiang but by the time I found my phone he left already.
I know you people think I'm always sharing my secrets, very 'bu yao lian'. Tell you guys something. You know why I don’t keep secrets? I've actually got a reason behind it. My parents always fought (big time, like 3 months don’t talk) when I was little, and my mum always told me not to tell anyone so I kept it to myself until I told Ness last year. I don’t know why her but it was quite a good choice. Anyway, I learnt that keeping stuff to myself is a really painful experience, so I guess it was automatic to learn to share my secrets with others from then on. Not that my parents don’t fight now, they STILL DO. But not so often and not so long. And through those experiences it really hurt me hard. And I used to cry a lot. But if you realise now I don’t cry at all in front of you guys. Of course part of me wants my face, but that’s not it. I actually do not feel sad enough to cry anymore. You know how sad I was during Graduation Day? I was TERRIBLY SAD. The nostalgia of carefree primary school days still strike me and I become unable to work for the whole day just thing about those things. But on Graduation Day and even now, when I try to cry about it, to let it out, it just doesn’t come out. I don’t know why, I guess maybe that’s why I actually liked Can Xiang. He cried- NORMALLY. You see, guys don’t usually cry. They find it embarrassing. But I'm actually rather embarrassed that I can't cry like others do. It feels terrible. Anyway, I gotta go do my homework and stuff, so byee!