DAMNIT. HIGH EXPECTATIONS CAN KILL

Sianz. I'm so bored! Poor people like CES have to slog like shit with assessment books and stuff. I was SMSing him just now. God, help me! I thought I could do this, but seriously, it doesn't seem like I can. Just one SMS and I have to start ALL OVER AGAIN to forget him. Haiz... I CAN REMEMBER HIS NUMBER SO EVEN IF I DELETE IT... ... OH FUCK.

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That was yesterday... Haha. This morning was a scary one. I called Vanessa and we talked and talked and talked about how scared we were. Denise was in school, and she told us that the list of the TOP TEN would be out in a flash. So we shivered all the way to school.

Everyone at school was happy, very happy, and excited. I admit to being a little complacent, and I DID expect something reasonably presentable, at least 270 (which I wouldn't be unhappy about)...

When the results were released, it was a SHOCK. Aidi (mainstream but she missed the GEP test though) TOPPED THE SCHOOL WITH AN AGGREGATE of only 277, with LEE VOON OUR PRIDE AND GLORY as SECOND with ONLY 276. Zhiwen got 275 (PRO!) and ChanWel, BS and Kevin got quite good marks too... And the rest of us were disapointed, because the 10th was only 272 (and obviously our marks fell below that). It was amazing that the mainstream pupils performed so well!

The first thing the teachers told us when we got to class was to copy down the Helplines (those that help people with suicidal thoughts). That did it. Man... Those teachers are WONDERFUL at managing expectations. I should have learnt that!

When it was my turn to collect my results slip, CLS held the paper, took a peep, smiled a bit and handed it to me. I knew by then that it wouldn't be THAT bad. But still...?

I looked. It fell short of what I felt would be acceptable (270) by 1 mark, and my target mark by 11 marks (targets are always higher so that you have a leaway (correct spelling?) to fall short by a bit. HARHAR. A BIT? My foot. 269. LOUSY.

The next challenge I face- how to tell my parents my mark without screaming it out for all to hear. I tried hand gestures, but failed miserably (my dad actually thought I got 252!). Then it struck me! Use french! Harhar... You know what I did? I made quite a bad mistake. In my haste, I said 279 instead of 269, but my parents were smart enough to guess... They were OKAY with the mark and I was the one who was disapointed. I asked YanQi for his mark, he tied with me so I knew my mark wasn't too bad. I asked Desmond and Fabian, both of which got 268. YAY! But KAIYUEN got 271 @&! (that's how it comes out when you press the shift button XP).

CES did quite well. Not too badly la, at least... I think he got 264 ba...

After most people were gone, my mum went to talk to CLS.

"你是罗拉的妈妈？" "Um." "我们没见过面" *my mum, a bit 'paiseh'* ->"有通过电话" "Um."

Then CLS was very kind la, encouraging and all that, and she told my mum we can go celebrate. Haha. She was quite observant to realise that it wasn't my parents who were disapointed, but me. My mum told CLS that from my facial expression I did DAMN badly. DIDN'T I? CLS said I expected too much of myself. Haha. That has some truth in it as well... Finally, CLS mentioned throwing a party for the class. I don't know if she was joking, but I thought it was a good idea. I told Vanessa and the first idea that got to her was, "You want to see your darling CES is it?" Hm... Maybe. But I DON'T want to see him... If I do, I won't be able to forget him right? URGH. DON'T LAUGH. Haha.

Seriously, isn't it a good idea to get everyone together once a year or something? I can start packing my room and get some people over to my house to brainstorm about it. My mum said that to cut cost we can hold a party at King Albert Park McDonalds, which is GIGANTIC. Then everyone can go buy their own food... Is that a good idea? We were thinking, what date should we hold it? Is 5th December fine? Because we don't want it too near Christmas (if not I have to buy so many Xmas Presents, I 'bo lui' leh... MY WALLET GOT STOLEN REMEMBER?)

Yea... When I got home my parents just discussed a little, and they concluded that the PSLE was too easy to sieve out the bright sparks. I'm not saying Aidi isn't a bright spark, she's a genius. I'm talking about Rachel Lim. She wasn't in the Top 10! Aiyo. Not possible. Rachel has an IQ of 200 man! Like jiang zhishu from ISWAK la!

I was SMSing my RGPS friend, she said that the 281 came from her school. Guess what my mum said? Chances are, its either malay or indian. The reason for saying that? It's hard to score in chinese, especially because the format just changed. Also, the paper was WAY TOO EASY and didn't do justice to the real pros...

Well well... This has been an experience of a lifetime. My parents are telling me to buck up and start studying for my A levels. Haha. Interesting parents I have eh? They even earn points for me on neopets. They love 'Word Poker'. Try it! It's really hard.

Bye!!!