Stuff Readers Love to Read About-Crushes & Stuff

First of all, allow me to re-introduce to you CrossEyedSmiley, CES in short. People always tell me that CES looks damn gay and isn't exceptionally smart. I didn't know why I liked him (finally I got my pronouns right) until I got to know him better. I agree that his eyelashes are really (as in VERY) long, but he looks kind of cute when he smiles because of his dimples. =) He's actually quite kind and not sexist like other guys. This last reason I only found out through the course of our co-operation during the debate-he's rather aloquent and not as lazy as other guys even though he was reluctant to join the team and speak.

I don't know a lot about him. Just a bit. HP Number (NOT TELLING). Email. Likes red. Birthday 11 Nov (I'm getting a pressie!) Likes to play Dual Master Cards. Likes to wear Reebok shirts. I'm dying to know... Is he christian? Because if he isn't, I have to forget it. TO be frank that's not THAT hard for me... There's this guy in my church who's really cute! Hehe =) IN MY CELL AS WELL!!! (LMAO)

There were several instances in which SOME PEOPLE (RONG RONG?!) felt that CES was gaining interest in me. I didn't and don't really think so, because: 1. I'm not pretty. 2. I'm not smart. 3. I'm not nice to guys, I'm usually very fierce.
Anyway I will share these instances with you...

The first incidence was when we were at Gate A, and after staring at me for a moment CES walked up and said,"You have a crush on the Chinese Chess Teacher right?" Seriously, I COULD NOT BELIEVE my ears. That just showed how wrong someone could get. But because he said that just after I sent an anonymous admirer mail to him, I thought he had already blown my cover. Now, I think that wasn't the case...

What happened after that was that because Jean gave me CES' number that day, I decided to try it out. The SMS I got in reply was, "Who is ******? What are you talking about?" After asking Jean about whether she was sure she gave the correct number, I replied, "Don't you know Jean, Ness & I are in cahoots, Mr. *****?" The reply shocked me. "So who is honey wagon?" (Honey Wagon is the name I used...) I feel that that question was genuine, he really didn't know who. It was the dumb me who first replied,"Gawd noes. Y ask me man." and after a while regretted and dropped the bombshell,"Keep ur mouth shut n i'l tel u hu tt is. Go chk ur mail.", meaning that I had access to that email. Well, but just in case he was dumb enough not to understand, I send an email,"Yea right. I have a crush on the CChess Teacher?" and an SMS,"Honey Wagon is an issue of damuzhi. FYI, DUMBO, THAT'S ALSO ME."
I REGRETTED MY ACTION RIGHT AFTER I DID IT. It hadn't occured to me, how 'jian', crazy or desperado I might have seemed! Until, that is, it was too late. So after a day in school when he knew about me liking him and everything, I sent him an email using my real acount,"Dear Mr. *****, SOSA is pleased to inform you that you have been tricked." I CCed it to Vanessa and added in the email, "So... Vanessa? Can I expect a promotion?" Which was lame, but to prevent it from seeming too dubious I had to do that. I told Jean and she was FURIOUS and sent an email to CES saying,"As a member of SOSA, I received the email that Laura sent to you, and I can assure you that YOU HAVE NOT BEEN TRICKED. It was Laura's choice to send that email and SHE REALLY LIKES YOU. So if you like her too, GRAB HER!" Seriously, the GRAB HER bit made me sound like some kind of prostitute on sale. I didn't think it was such a bad idea but Vanessa definitely did and she sent him ANOTHER email,"My sincere apologies, Jean did not know that we have already decided to inform you about the prank." Something along that line. How confusing. Poor CES! Haha. She then SMSed me, saying, " WTF is Jean doing? If he thinks its a prank, and in class he continues to stare at you, that means he really likes you." Going by this theory, Vanessa shouldn't have sent the email, because the staring decreased drastically... Good thing there was another incident that happened on the day that CES found out (at least he knew at that time) that I liked him that would be nice to remember...
Jean & Vanessa were playing Chinese Chess and Yirong, SR and I were sitting around watching. Halfway during the game, CES walked to our table and my heart STOPPED BEATING. He just watched for very long, and then he walked away without saying anything. He did that several times... When he left, YR said, "He was SO flirting with you." That was really what she thought, but I WISH man. He was just interested in Chinese Chess.

Ahha. We acted normal except when I tried to make conversation by bringing our kindergarten magazine to school and telling him through SMS that he looked damn gay. The reply was something like," I know. The uniform was a bloody pink. Crap. You know, you look like someone who changed sex." LOL. That was the ONLY non-serious message I ever received from CES. Oh yes. Your 2nd clue. We were FROM THE SAME KINDERGARTEN.

Then came the debate, and when Mrs O asked me who I would volunteer for the auditions I said CES & Bing Quan (YES, if you were sharp enough, you should know by now who CES is). So we went for it, he got in AND I BECAME A RESERVE. At that time, that was bad news for me, but now, this is ABSOLUTELY WONDERFUL NEWS because speaking is terribly tiring because I get really squirmy and can't think! I now prefer public speaking because you have everything you need to say in front of you!

Now this is the embarrassing bit-what happened during the 1st sparring session. I was the 1st speaker, CES was the 2nd speaker, BQ the 3rd speaker and Yi Rong as reply speaker. Which is why CES and I crammed at the same table, side by side. At some point in time during the debate, I realised that CES was leaning back whereas I was sitting up straight and using only the front bit of my chair. When I turned behind, I was shocked to discover that CES' hand was hooked on my chair. I thought, "What would happen if I leaned back all of a sudden?" Then I thought of the disastrous. If I leaned back, CES' hand would be caught under the weight of my body, and to the members of the house it would appear as if he was hugging me! No way. I could seriously do without a lot of those future teasings if that were to happen. Fortunately, CES took it away shortly after. I think he did that just for comfort, but it felt really awkward! Oh yes. One more thing that happened during the debate. After all the speeches, while we were waiting for results, CES pointed out that I was very red, blushing, and Yirong said that I had my own personal reasons, hinting that I liked him. He SO totally misunderstood. He said, " Oh... Some cycle?" I couldn't believe it so I told Yirong, "He made it even worse than it was meant to be!" He actually said it with a straight face! I told Jean and Jean told me that he had really thick-skin...Here's the example...

Last time, Jean and CES were about the same height. After half a year, CES suddenly grew significantly taller than Jean, so Jean teased him by saying, "Wah! Suddenly grow so tall! Growth spurt horh?" Guess what he replied? "Ya lah!Puberty mah!" OMGOMG I STILL CAN'T GET OVER IT!
I think that CES should already have realised that I like him, because I actually treat him very nicely. Take for example during the class party, Yirong and I were within earshot when I heard something about his birthday, so I screamed, "TODAY???!!!" all of a sudden and he turned around and said, "11 November"... OOh. I'm getting a present and its going to be anonymous! Haha. Another example is that during debate preparation for our second sparring session, SR came up with the baseline argument and the girls copied it down. I saw that CES didn't copy so I just acted frustrated and said, "Oh forget it. I'll copy for you." I was quite focused copying so I didn't look out for any facial expressions, but I can guess that the rest of the people were shocked. I would usually have said, "I don't care! Copy!" LMAO. Fortunately I was quick with the copying and I grabbed the papers of the other two guys and copied as well so that it wouldn't be so obvious.

Another thing was that because our argument was about BGR, we kept side-tracking and teasing each other, so because there was Fabian, BQ, SR and Yirong, CES & I paired Fabian & SR and BQ & Yirong, and because there was CES & me left, Fabian pointed at CES and said something like, "Then the both of you leh?" So I just said without any expression, "Don't joke." Somehow CES knew I wasn't joking and he said, "Then what about the ***** email? Jealously right?" He said it quite soft so I wasn't sure if I heard right, but I DID send an email, asking if he liked ***** (someone) because she seemed to like him. I was stunned but I pretended not to hear. Very very extremely embarrasing.

I think this is more than enough for you to understand what goes on in my mind... Haha. Bye!!! I REALLY have to prepare for the debate now... =P